No Plan

Still don't know what I'm planning.
Is it a trip? A visit? A move.
It seems to have something to do with a destination.
I've considered Norway, Myanmar, Germany, and Switzerland.
I've also considered Sri Lanka, Poland, Cambodia, and Spain.
My sister has mentioned Ireland. Thailand is great. Turkey, Mexico, the Dominican Republic and even Nicaragua have their points.
In order of preference my top nine are:

1. Uruguay
2. Ecuador
3. Argentina
4. Panama
5. Malaysia
6. Colombia
7. India
8. Honduras
9. Brazil

There was a time when I did little more than point my toes in a likely direction and take one step after another.

Now I have lots of questions. I question my motives, my sanity, my lack of clear goals and much more.

Questions that occur to me at the moment include:

• Why choose Uruguay?
• Why not stay here?
• Where should I go?
• Why should I go?
• What do I expect to find there?
• What do I expect to do there?
• How long do I intend to stay?
• How does a destination effect my top goals?
• Why do my top goals seem less clear than usual?
• Am I planing to make a new home? Why?
• How shall I go there?
• What if I find I don't like being there?
• Shall I rent out the JT House before I start.
• Should I drive to Miami and sell the Astro there?
• What should I do with my mail?
• What should I do with my utilities?
• Do I have the strength and energy I need?

One thing that I do know that whatever it is I intend to do, now is the time to begin it.

"Visit"

It's what I used to call travel.

Looks as though I may be able to do it once again.

I'd like to try staying in the same place for 60 or 70 days. I am just learning to take care of a 73 year old body and have thought that I should perhaps not leave home alone. But, perhaps, if I stay put in one place it will not be beyond me to go it alone. I could try relaxing in one place as so many do, and have done. Maybe this old dog can learn a new trick.

It's not that I like to travel (visit) alone better that traveling with a companion. It is that not many who can, or want to, stay in one place for a month or more; especially if happens to be a place 4 days outside of Ulan Bator.

I figure that I'll have to save up about $5000 for for a trip (visit) of a couple of months. I have begun to save. I may sell a few things. I have a "For Sale" sing over some stuff in the driveway right now. Perhaps I'll put a few things in storage and put this place up for rent.

Now I can begin to dream of destinations and then to contemplate them.

"Visit" May Be The Word

I am beginning to feel like travelling again. I am beginning to feel like making a trip. However, I am also beginning to think that it is time to make my language be more in accord with my reality. It is true that I am experiencing that feeling that I have associated with travel.
That feeling includes an enthusiasm, a pleasant anticipation, a quickening of life, and more.

However, my previous idea of taking as trip does not call up the enthusiasm it once did. In some ways I still believe that the trip is more important than the arrival; that the exploration and discovery along the way is more important than the destination. However the feelings associated with the experience of exploration, discovery, novelty, and variety, need not be associated with travel or trip.

Let me explain a bit. I have 'travelled' in many ways. One set of those ways included behavior such as traveling 10 or 20 days without sleeping in the same bed twice. I have traveled two and three years at a time stopping only long enough to fill my wallet. Not so long ago I took two trips in on year on both of which I travelled over 40 days without sleeping in the same bed twice. In deed some nights I tried more than one bed.

I may find myself trying two or three beds in one night in order to find one in a place quiet enough to sleep in. However, I no longer am interested in the kind of travel I've outlined above.
It is behavior that I intend to avoid. But it is behavior that I have strongly associated with 'trip' and 'travel.'

I'm not sure how to change my language or of what words to use. Today, I intend to try the verb 'visit.' So, might I not say, I feel like visiting as place or region which seems to offer me a good chance of experiencing pleasant novelty and variety. I feel like practicing exploration and discovery where I can enjoy the same good bed many nights.